To think pmdd is nothing more than dishonesty with oneself?

[WhatAreYouOnAbout]

Just that…. I have the most psychotic pmdd maybe once a quarter…. I be about to call the divorce lawyers then I come around and it’s like Wtaf was that all about. I’m coming to think tho that the pmdd self is the real self. Any thoughts?

What do you think psychotic means?

In this case, Truth. Obviously psychotic is removed from reality. Hmm

No it’s not your true self.

To quote yourself...WhatAreYouOnAbout

I hope not, but im afraid it is.

Take the hormones away and you won’t feel like that anymore.

Im so sensitive to hormones. I’m on the mini pill now which keeps me balanced but when I wasn’t oh my goodness, I was like another person when they kicked off.

I know what you mean. But I really don’t think so. If your ‘real self’, ie PMDD-self, is only present for a few days, and your more regulated ‘fake’ self is present the rest of the month, then in reality the fake, nice you is actually the real you, no? Because you’re out there being that person 80/90% of the time.

Have you been offered any treatment?

@dreamfield
Well people with PPMD do suffer psychosis.. where their thoughts are disturbed and have trouble realising what's real and what's not.
I suffered with it bad.. started my periods age 6.
I took pills to stop them .. then started again age 10. I even had to wear a bra.
I had hormone suppositories for my PPMD.
I once had such a psychosis episode l actually pulled a fridge door off its hinges and emptied the entire contents all over the floor.. that was just one example.. in the moment l didn't know l was doing it.
I actually was in and out of a psychiatric hospital with these episodes.. l stabbed my husband.. hit him over head with a frying pan.. punched a psychiatric nurse so hard he fell over.
If it had have been 8 years earlier l would have been sectioned .
I've been to the psychiatric hospital museum and women with bad PPMD were often sectioned.. put into straight jackets into padded cell like rooms.
I also had Endometriosis and PCOS..the Merina coil was out then.. medication was the only option.. l had an hysterectomy age 38.

No, PMDD self is not the "real self" ... it's literally your brain and body under a specific set of hormonal and chemical circumstances. It's not some mystical insight into your true self.

I know what you mean. When I come out of the 3/4 day hell of it I don't recognise who I've been, it's scary, I hate it.

Has your Dr suggested sertraline?

It’s not your true self. Get help from your doctor. Sometimes eliminating periods by taking the pill continuously helps. Sometimes SSRI antidepressants work. You shouldn’t suffer like this.

But did you ever think, like, am I flawed or you know, or am I actually not flawed… my truth in the height of pmdd is “ I dont want to be in this relationship; I have no time for your demands! “ when it passes I like plod along with the aforementioned demands. I don’t actually think this is psychotic, it’s being brought up with a lack of tools to stand up for own truth.

@WhatAreYouOnAbout in the height of my PMDD I could easily convince myself, and frequently did, that I hated my DP, that I ought to leave him, that I was unhappy in my relationship. And then the fog lifts and bam, I'm back to realising that he is a loving, wonderful partner and father, that he does nothing but love and support me. The feelings of rage and wanting to leave are not based in any reality, it's like someone flipping a switch. If you're generally unhappy in your relationship by all means leave. But for me, that luteal phase is like night and day compared to my normal rational thinking,

If you're unhappy in your relationship then it will be amplified when your hormones kick off op.

Most people find the person they live with a bit annoying sometimes, but because they love them they work through it.

I do get what you're saying. But I think you are probably more unfiltered and a bit less emphatic when hormones are all over the shop.

How old are you? Could you be peri menopausal?

If you’re not happy in your relationship you don’t have to stay in it. Or if it’s just a disconnect you could try couples therapy to work though some stuff?

When you say about sex drive - is he pestering you? Do you have no sex drive at all?

Your post stayed with me and I feel heard @RandomButtons pestering is the exact word, I laugh when I think about it. It’s like because I’ve dishonored myself going along with it to keep the peace so often I have developed an aversion to it and now find the thought of it entirely repulsive. I doubt he would go to therapy. I feel it so viscerally I can’t be around him and he’s wondering what he did. Thank you for all you lovely posts. Yes @OnHerSolidFoundations possibly perimenopausal, thank you @AnitaLoos for saying I shouldn’t have to suffer like that and yes @patchworkpal dr did prescribe sertraline a few years ago when she diagnosed my pmdd, but I was too afraid to take them. I might have to reconsider as this is not fair on anyone. I just don’t want to drug myself out of reality and away from truth. I was so on top of it recently with exercise and healthy eating but I had a massive blip this month as a few things threw me off my routine. Thank you everyone 😘