Ill and so dramatic

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Been d&v since midnight last night, basically can't keep water down even.
My mental state is fragile and I just want my mum but she died last year.
I feel suicidal, my mind goes so whoop when I am ill.
2 teens and I'm 45. Why can't I get a grip I know this will all pass I just live so much in the moment.
Aibu or does this happen to anyone else?

Yes it does. You need to rehydrate as priority OP because when you're dehydrated it makes depression much worse. Try sipping water with a little salt and sugar mixed in. Once you can keep down fluids your mood should lift to a more manageable level. If your teens are old enough send them out for rehydration sachets and lucozade.

First of all, just had a quick look and if you can’t keep even water down and keep being sick, you should call 111.

Apart from that - agree with everything in @5128gap’s very sensible post. When I had very bad d from food poisoning a few years ago, I was shaking uncontrollably and felt icy cold. Other illnesses have made me feel like chucking myself off the nearest bridge. Mood can be very sensitive to physical illness. I would get some rehydration sachets any way that you can and take them as indicated on the packet. You’ll feel a bit better and that will help your mood. You’re probably extra vulnerable at the moment from losing your mum so recently but you can get through this x

Thank you both

How are you feeling? Any better?

Cramps but then d&v has dried up a bit, just monster headache but I will slowly rehydrate now.

Dd got lucozade good ideq

It should help with your headache. Hope you get some sleep and feel better soon.

Do not discount your altered emotional state as being at least partly a symptom of your illness. I felt so incredibly depressed the night before I got a positive covid test the first time I got it. Take care of your mind and body. I wish you the best. Call the samaritans if it gets too dark.

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