Preoccupied with dying..

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I'm 35. I've lost family members due to brain tumours and bowel cancer, both under the age of 30.

I'm convinced I've got or will get cancer. I've had chest pains, nausea all the time, I feel full really quickly, irregular bowel habits. Gp don't seem too concerned.

I'm convinced I'm going to or have some kind of cancer, it seems to be more and more prevalent these days. How am I supposed to live my life just ignored every symptom knowing brushing them off could cost my life? I'm such a nervous wreck.

Ah, I'm partly replying to bump this for you so others may reply but although not exactly the same, I often have unexplained pains and symptoms that I can often trace back to stress and trauma and it is so hard unpicking it all. I never know when to check something out or not so settle for periodic check ups like blood tests and the odd scan. Although, unlike you (I am guessing) I am ambivalent towards life so take a more what will be will be approach.

Have you ever talked to professional about this as what you've been though is a lot to carry alone?

I hope others will reply also.

@Treeper22 Thank you. I had some health anxiety CBT back in 2018 which did help but then when my 23 year old cousin died of an undiagnosed brain tumour it kind of took everything I learnt it CBT (these things being rare, doctors would know etc) out of the window.

I just don't feel right most of the time.. I always tired, I feel full really quickly, lost of nausea/upset stomachs and chest pain. I don't know what to do

I think sometimes you have to retrain your thought processes (from someone currently in remission)

Cancer is shit but one in two of us will have it in our lifetimes. Constantly worrying and having anxiety will not help. If you were to develop cancer then you've used all this time that you could have been enjoying in vain. Focus on what you can do to try and prevent it; exercise, healthy diet, limit alcohol etc. If you are finding it all consuming and taking over your life then you need to speak with a professional

The only thing you can do really other than see your GP is take control of your health. Do you eat healthy? Drink plenty water, minimum bad habits, weight healthy etc. exercise? It's a way of gaining a bit of control. A lot of what you're saying are signs of anxiety.

I'm 5'7 and weigh about 11st so I think I'm a healthy ish weight. I don't exercise enough other than running after my toddler, and I could have a healthier diet.

They reduced my citalopram a month ago as I was doing ok and I'm wondering if I just wasn't ready for it. I just don't understand what can be causing this chest pain and feeling full for hours after eating very little. I can have 5-10 bowel movements a day some days. I'm so anxious. I'm going to go to doctors again but feel like I have that many symptoms I don't know where to start.

As someone who does have cancer and is definitely going to die early - please please don't waste your precious time worrying.

By all means get your basic ducks in a row with a will and life insurance and of course look after yourself and don't be fobbed off if something isn't right for you (that's one thing I wish I had done as I'm well under the age that medics are concerned - hence the dying).

But how I wish I could go back to a time when my mind could be free of all that.