To be upset I’m still unable to come off antidepressants 2 years PP

[Ginspirational]

I had DD almost two years ago. I had horrendous post natal depression and went onto sertraline at 5 weeks PP, under the impression this would be short lived. I’ve now failed to come off them 3 times (under GP guidance). It all just comes flooding back. I naively thought PND went away. Or does it, and this is just depression now?

I am really upset that I’m unable to be a good parent without the help of medication.

Has anyone else experienced this and when did it go away (if ever?) I just don’t see a light at the end of the tunnel.

Do you function daily while on your depressants?
No shame or bad feelings for this needing to be part of your daily life.
I love that it relaxes my anxiety that one day I won't take a tablet.
It is no shame as it is a common thing alot pf parents take.
A friend of mine desperately needs them.but doesn't like the idea of taking a pill, yet why not I say.

I've been on antidepressants since I was 17 except for a break when I was trying to get pregnant & was pregnant with ds. Within a week of ds being born, I ended up on a dose of more than double my previous dose due to PND causing me to be suicidal. I've accepted that I will be on them for the rest of my life.