Just what it says, really. It's the least important thing in the world, we are both happily married and are not in touch nor ever will be - but having a teenage daughter going through a similar situation at the moment, it just made me think about how we perceive ourselves and situations when we're young.
When I was 13, I had a huge crush on my friend's older brother. Without wanting to be too dramatic, he was probably the first person I fell in love with, although we were never together. We knew each other pretty well through an out of school activity, as well as that I spent a lot of time at their house with his sister.
I had always assumed it was a one way crush, that he was totally out of my league, being three years older than me at school (although a nice, fairly shy, clever kind of boy rather than some kind of lothario) and as I had no confidence as a teenager that any boy would ever like me. But I'm now wondering if I was a total idiot!
I recently visited our old hometown (I moved house and school at the end of that year) and it brought back memories which I had forgotten about, mainly of an end of year school disco. The last song was a slow song and he came over and asked me to dance. I remember at the time, it felt like something out of a film. The song ended, nothing else happened, we went home and I moved a couple of weeks later. He wrote to me (unprompted) after I moved, just a few silly, funny letters, before we eventually lost touch.
We've not seen each other since, though I am in occasional touch with his sister, so know what he's up to (that he's married with kids etc). None of us still live in our old hometown and before anyone jumps to conclusions, this is not about rekindling anything with him I'm just curious!
Am I being unreasonable in now, looking back on it as an adult, thinking that he clearly liked me too and I was blind not to see it?
Or did he just feel sorry for me?!