Anyone else get a feeling to pull back partway into a relationship?

[Pireck]

Been seeing a guy for about 7 months. All is well, he is lovely and thoughtful and we have done lots of lovely things together and for each other and the sex is good. But I have this growing sense of something negative in me, it's not something specific. It's a bit like being worried but the actual thing I'm worried about changes from day to day. Sometimes I feel the urge to withdraw and not see or speak to him, and part of me wonders if I want to see that he'd care. I know he would care so it's irrational.
Anyway, as you can tell I already know that IABU, but I just wondered if anyone else experiences something similar and how.you cope with it?
Between the ages of about 13 to when I left home at 18 I experiences domestic violence from my dad who hates me (he's mentally ill) and I wonder if at the bottom of it I just believe that all men will hate me eventually or something like that.

Hi,

I understand exactly what you are feeling as I’m going through it myself at the moment. 8 months in, great relationship though I have these moments of negativity and worry and like yourself that worry changes. I believe it’s connected to issues I have with my own self worth and confidence. I’m desperately trying not to self sabotage and look within myself and remind myself of all the good. Sorry I don’t have much advice but I hope you find a way through it.

Maybe it makes you feel vulnerable to be at this point in a relationship? Especially given your history, you are maybe subconsciously worried you'll get hurt in some way so want to pull back to protect yourself.

Sorry if that came across as too personal/was unwarranted x

Yes it is like a form of self sabotage isn't it! I guess that as time goes on, the significance of the relationship grows and its more likely you can have anxieties about whether or not everything is OK. It's silly because there's nothing at all wrong with the relationship but it's like I'm looking for something to be wrong.

I think it may unfortunately be true. At least I can be aware of why I sometimes get these feelings and can try and push through them, thanks for your input.