To really not want to go back to work

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I have been on maternity leave since may and I am due to go back in about six weeks. I know I’ve been really lucky to have had this time, but there are two aspects to not wanting to go back.

1. its been lovely being able to be around during the day. Things like Mother’s Day and Christmas events for the older one. No mad rush and frantic stressing to get out of the house first thing. Being able to do things when it’s not so busy.
2. I hate my job I do three days a week and I know I’m lucky to have this much. But as everyone knows two days with very small children isn’t really a ‘break’ and there’s going to be the frantic mornings with two of them to get up and ready and out of the house. Three days at nursery feels like a lot in a way (eldest dc currently does two) and I don’t know how the baby will adapt.

There will be good things. More money and so on. I just really don’t enjoy being at work and balancing the needs of two children as well feels a lot, especially when the youngest one inevitably falls ill.

Well you do what's best for you but you are sacrificing your career to make sure your DH doesn't have to make any changes. So just be aware of that... it leaves you with very limited options if your circumstances change. Have you asked him to pull his weight ?

He does in some ways. But I don’t have (or, significantly, want) a career. I have a job.

Agree and I had to work FT as I was a single parent. 3 days a week would have been heaven for me.