Posting here for traffic because I need help, please.
I’m really struggling with mental health-motivation.
I don’t really know where to start.
I have 4 year old DS who I dote on and love every minute spent with him. I have a long term partner his dad who I love and is truly supportive.
I’ve been on anti depressants for about 3.5yrs but have been depressed for a long time. I’ve tried therapy but in the past year I’ve been mostly good, I only take 50mg of the medication which is the lowest dose.
The problem is, now I struggle to get out of bed in the morning. I work 2 days (different days every week) and my DS is in nursery 3 days. I could sleep all day every day and I find tasks so hard to complete, like cleaning the house, chores errands etc. i make lists but I rarely complete them. I have big aspirations every week to meal plan and keep fit and do this/that the next thing but I end up staying in reading or on my phone or asleep (if I’m not working) I love spending days off with DS but it takes us hours to ok leave the house. This month has been terrible. There’s been days I’ve spent in bed sleeping. I’ve been eating terrible. I feel so flat and slumped. And tired. The tiredness can be all consuming.
I also feel like I’m so grateful for my life, I’m so lucky and I have no reason to be depressed. I just think there’s something wrong with my brain and I hate myself for it.
Can someone please offer some support or guidance or advice. I need to turn my life around but I don’t know where to start. I feel like I’m wasting so much time.