I feel like me & DH keep having huge fights started by me. I have very little help from outside sources other than a visit to my dad and mum's house once a week. I have a 4 year old boy who is in nursery part time, a 21 month old boy and a 8 months old.
Baby is exclusively breastfed & is a very loving but hard baby who is very clingy and does whine a lot. He is unable to crawl yet so I think it's just a hard stage however it has been very challenging as I feel I cannot give older boys enough attention as I'm always dealing with baby.
I feel extremely guilty that I cannot give the other two my attention and would love to do more activities and outings with them however this is very hard. I did bake in the chaos this morning but overall I feel they are missing out.
As I breastfeed I am often left with baby and husband take older boys out etc. I feel like I'm the boring shouty parent and he does all the fun activities. I also feel he is not fully tuned into the baby and does not ask how he slept etc. I also feel like I am a Debbie downer then going out of my way to explain to husband the baby has cried all morning etc.
I feel like I can do nothing right and that I'm an awful shouty mum and the kids would have a better time without me :( I feel like husband does not listen and then I explode and he acts although it came out of the blue and Im a bit mad.
My house is a mess, washing needs done, I am a mess and now I feel like an awful wife and mother. Does anyone else have struggles like this :(