On a serious note.. I was very close friends with a guy, as in spoke every day, hung out for hours alone, just really vibed well. The problem was I had a huge crush on him, I knew he didn't want anything more.
I tried to just be close friends, but it wasn't easy. Generally if I'm really good friends with a guy, it's not someone I'm attracted to.
At the time, I felt it best to distance myself for a bit to get over the crush. This is fine, the worst thing was that I told him.
At the time, my reasoning in my mind was that I'm not someone who just goes cold and distant. If we were just very casual acquaintances I doubt he'd have even noticed, but we were talking all the time.
I wish I hadn't said anything and just gone off the radar for however long it took.
He understood, but I'm cringing with embarrassment. I don't know what I was thinking at the time, I let my emotions get the better of me.
It's been a good few weeks since. At first, he understandably seemed very awkward, however now he just acts like nothing happened.
We don't talk like before, I'm not sure it'll go back to that, but we're still friendly which is great, though it's much more distant.
Anyway, I wish I could've just put the crush to one side as part of me feels like I just made things awkward with a good mate.
Next time, I'll say absolutely nothing. I feel so stupid and pathetic.