I accidentally stumbled over my ex partners instagram. It was all open, I saw the new girl he’s with too. Id say I’ve worked on myself for 7 months to be over him. I just wanted to look out of curiosity.
No pictures on his insta. Clicked on her insta. He’s all over her like a rash. Like a literal rash. Never behaved like that with me even in the early days. Comments like “you’re my world babe” “you mean everything to me” “god babe you look so hot. I can’t keep my hands off you”
all that. Like no I’m not bothered. But what bothers me is he never told me the truth. I knew he cheated. I knew what he was doing. It happened once before. Looking at the pictures was a little odd for me. But I just kinda felt, meh. Like he looks genuinely happy and I wonder was I just never good enough.
oh and he also did the promise ring thing with this girl. Did that same with me too.
Part of me just wants to let rip and message her saying “just an fyi. What he did to me he’ll do to you” but I just don’t feel I have the energy or inclination. I just know. And no I shouldn’t have looked but I was really curious.
on top of all this I had to go to an sti clinic because he also gave me an sti and im still dealing with what he did to me.
AIBU for doing this? Like I don’t care about him he’s dead to me but…should I have exercised control. Should I get a grip?