Had a bad day at work recently. Was giving a talk to a huge group of people and just froze on the podium. I'd had some stressful news and a bad night's sleep the night before.
I did my presentation ok but couldn't answer the participant's questions. I thought I was going to pass out.
I'm very senior in what I do and this is completely out of character for me.
I don't think anyone even really noticed but I was so mortified that I was in pieces,
I ended up texting some even more senior colleagues and talking about it, a bit frantically, as I was worried word would get out about how bad it was.
The texts were basically me saying I needed advice because I'd done so badly, and that I was thinking of resigning or taking a demotion, and asking their views on that.
I cannot stress how out of character this was for me. I'm usually a total professional and so resilient,
The female colleagues all replied really nicely but a couple of men ignored the message, or replied coldly.
Now a few days have gone and obviously I feel better but I feel so so embarrassed about texting them. I'm wondering if I should address it, or just move on. I cringe every time I think about it, which is about 1000 times a day.