Whenever I spend time with family, there are always so many little things that I just can’t deal with. For example, people being rude. Asking me a question and then picking up their phone when I start answering and totally disengaging. People being defensive and generally finding a reason to disagree with anything I say. When I try to offer to do a nice thing, to treat my nephews to something small and am told by their mum they wouldn’t like it anyway. I mean, why not just appreciate the thought behind the gesture? It’s an endless list of minor issues that just becomes like a never ending reel of events that are all just irritating.
Recently, I’m just thinking that I must be the problem. Im the common denominator. But I just feel like those around me just seem to always take issue where no issue needs to be taken. Always have to put a negative spin on absolutely anything I ever try to do to be nice or kind.
Do some people just want a really negative life? I just feel like maybe life would be better if I just don’t get involved with any of them. But the sad thing is, I really want to be involved. It almost feels like they are in some way acting as if we are in competition and needing to down-do anything that I say or do.
But I’m really second guessing myself and thinking I must be doing something to cause all of this. Maybe I’m in some way irritating everyone, without knowing it.
I feel silly for posting and I’m aware that I’m rambling but the specific details would be really outing and I’d appreciate any advice.