I am feeling a bit lonely and vulnerable.
I don't have many friends anymore. I used to, but a lot of my friends moved away for uni and I don't see them. We keep in touch and see each other now and then when we can, but you know, I want proper friends. The kind of friends you can be complete at ease with. I have one good friend who lives near, but we both have children and conflicting work schedules so it can be hard to get time to do things alone together or in the evening. We only really see each other once every couple of months.
I have a job where I'm surrounded by people, but I am their manager so they don't socialise with me (I understand that). My husband works unsocial hours and so I'm often alone and he has an active social life too (that's fine, btw, I want him to enjoy things). I've tried making friends with the school mums but I missed a few of the arranged drinks and they seem to have peeled off into their groups. They're all nice, but whenever I try to organise a drink or meet up it doesn't seem to come to anything. I can go entire weeks without speaking to a single friend.
I just feel really sad and lonely and it's worse than ever today. It's been a really tough week and I would love a drink and a chat with a friend. Thanks for listening.