I've been single for a while. I have done the whole online dating thing in the past and it hasn't ended well.
After my breakup I stayed away from any kind of site for a long long time but now I've decided it's time to try again.
Why don't I go out and meet someone rather than online? Because I simply don't have the confidence to do that. I'd be single for the rest of my life if that was the case, which is looking more likely hence the reason for this post.
I was swiping through some sites this evening and the main thing going through my head was 'does he look like he'd end up scattering my body parts over the countryside'? That is genuinely something that scares the crap out of me. I think I have watched way too many real life crime shows.
I know it's wise to be wary. I know it's a good idea to meet someone in an open place, in some situations have a friend hidden in case you are not feeling comfortable, but what happens after the 4th/5th date or even when you've been together a while and then they show their true colours? I know I sound a tad paranoid and I can assure everyone that it's not weed induced, I am just really hyper aware of how things can go bad quickly.
AIBU?
(SIDE NOTE: Everyone I swiped on tonight I had an uncomfortable feeling about.. this isn't just me being weird, I did have a situation many years ago when I met a man off a site and we'd met up a quite few times. He was in the area for work one day and I said pop in for a coffee, however he ended up r@ping me, so my worries aren't completely unfounded, however I know that can happen with someone you meet at a bar...)