Trigger warning-miscarriage. Did I cause my own miscarriage

[Fullmoontonightisit]

Something at the back of my mind that’s always worried me.
Years ago I did ivf due to infertility. It was all quite complicated and not much was explained properly. After one try at implanting an embryo I wasn’t taking as much Progesterone as I should have I don’t think, the importance of it hadn’t been explained to me and I often took one less progesterone suppository per day. When my blood test came, the results were low but showed pregnant according to the numbers, Dr said she didn’t think so, but I remember the numbers being in the category for pregnant. I then remember a few days of my stomach sort of cramping, it sort of came in waves and then I bled. I always bled if the procedure didn’t work
I feel so guilty and stupid that , does this sound like a miscarriage?

Op, bless you. You didn't cause anything, please let this pass from your mind. Are you okay? X

@EasterEggsComeAtMe Im ok thank you ☺️
I just think because I didn’t take enough progesterone it may have caused the miscarriage (if there was one) because it didn’t have enough

If you were pregnant and then didn't have the baby you miscarried. I'm so sorry.

You didn't cause it, and there's no way to know if it would have happened even with the right dose. Why did you choose to take less than prescribed? I've had years of fertility treatments and every woman I know followed the doctors orders to the letter.

You have to let this go either way and try to heal.

@RoomOfRequirement The figures on my first blood test result were very low but within the range that said pregnant. When the Dr saw the results she said it was too low for a viable pregnancy
It was one of my first cycles and I remember missing a couple of the doses as really understand how vital they were and was struggling with the suppositories

Good, I'm glad you're okay. I highly doubt it, there's so many what ifs with pregnancy and ttc you will never truly know but I do understand why something emotive for you has stayed in your mind. I do that too but it never leads to an answer, let yourself move on from it❤

No, this is absolutely not your fault, you can’t carry this guilt around with you. If it wasn’t blaming yourself for the suppositories, there would be something else. I often thought my mood was too low, too stressed, didn’t look after myself right, did I swim for too long etc etc

You couldn’t have changed the outcome and you can’t turn back time anyway, so it’s time to forgive yourself 💛