Where to start, I have been with my partner for 6 years now. We have 4 children together and don't get me wrong we have always had out ups and downs the same as probably a lot of other couples but the past few months seem to be really bad and I am now at the point where I am repeatedly telling him I don't want us to be together anymore ( even though I couldn't see my life without him) all because I feel he can't see that his behaviour is pushing our relationship apart. He doesn't drink every day but when he does its alot and then he only thinks of him. He goes off on a night out and since Christmas I have had calls to say that he is kicking off in car parks, he has been in an altercation which resulted in him being glassed, he has taken drugs and feels like he is going to die the list is endless.
I know I'm not easy and i can get argumentative at times but my life revolves around our children 24/7 and all he moans at me about is loosing weight. But, right now that isn't my priority my children are.
He calls me fat and compares me to other women all the time, he constantly looks at other women and makes comments to me about them and then if I say something it's my issue because I'm overweight. He says I smell if I haven't had time to shower. He took time off work to support me at home with the kids and I get a bit of help but not with the actual big stuff. I never have a full night's sleep. I'm at the end of my teather with him.
The icing on the cake may even seem silly but for Valentines day he really wanted a specific gold bracelet and I bought it for him then what did I get....... nothing. To then find out he's been hiding money from me. He said he saving up to leave me. I've told him why wait anymore if he wants to go then go. I'm really stuck with hating someone I love and it's destroying me now.