Not sure the best place to post this.
DC has very complex needs and after a period of stability things have fallen apart again. Big regression after covid and health decline which is now stable but was frightening for a while. I'm having a nightmare with the LA. We've been on the waitlist for a ramp assessment for over a year (OT said we need but then the council do their own seperate assessment before agreeing) and as DC gets bigger it's getting harder and harder to get into and out of the house. I'm also in a battle for other equipment with the OT, over education with the LA, barely getting any support from community services for DCs health needs. I feel like I should be able to hold myself together by now. And I could before but now every night I find myself crying my eyes out. I'm finding myself getting tearful all the time in the day and struggling to open my emails or answer the phone because almost everything is bad news or leads me into another fight and complaint or appeal. I've genuinely started to question if I wasn't here would things be better for DC? Would there be so many barriers to things needed if it wasn't for me?
I'm divorced so pretty much all of this falls onto my shoulders. I do have support from ex-inlaws with care but the "admin" side is all on me and I feel like I'm drowning.
I just don't understand why I can't seem to keep it together anymore. Nothing has changed it's always been a battle but I can't seem to find the hope anymore. It's like I used to think things could get better but now I know they never will.