Posting here for traffic really but I'm feeling so down and can't talk to anyone irl.
Currently 8 months pp and a SAHM to an 8mo and a 2yo (just turned 2) and most days I feel like I'm drowning. I feel so frumpy and hate the way I look but I have no motivation, will or even energy to do anything about it. I attend a parent and baby exercise class twice a week and walk the dog for an hour every day but the exercise class end up me running around after toddler for an hour or holding baby who refuses to be put down meaning I rarely get to take part in the actual exercises! There's no one else around to watch DDs as we don't live near family and all of the local nurseries and CMs are full for the next year!
My mind craves chocolate/convenience food even if the fridge is full of fruit/healthy food etc.
DH is away for work Mon-Fri and home for 3 nights over the weekend but then weekends are full of family stuff so there's no time to do anything then.
I've tried meal planning, food prep etc but it gets to the meals and I don't want to eat them. I just feel so stuck in a rut. I know my husband doesn't find me attractive anymore because we haven't DTD since before 8mo DD was born and that's affecting my confidence.
I feel so guilty for feeling like I do rather than just enjoying my two beautiful children.
Not really sure what I'm expecting responses to say tbh because there's not a lot I can do! Just needed somewhere to moan.