Actually I know that I kind of am.
NDN was broken into recently and I, not considering that the burglars would hang around after the alarm had gone off, blithely entered their house to switch off the alarm (I have a key) and to double check all was okay. Obviously they were still in the house but made a quick exit with slightly less than they might have done, passing me on the way.
Apart from a tiny wobble on the night and a mental slap for not simply calling NDN and/or police from outside, I was fine.
However, we’ve had a lot of local break-ins and burglaries and it was mentioned today that the last one also occurred when someone was unexpectedly home and they (a guy) were threatened with a knife. It may not have been the same team.
Now, my husband took the kids away for their annual dad/teen bonding week on the slopes and I am home alone with a puppy and a young dog… and I am lying in bed unable to sleep. I’ve had a mild but real panic attack at the thought of someone entering the house in the night. I’m worried for the dogs mainly but, yes, for myself.
I also feel silly… we have floodlights and cameras (as of a few weeks ago after the previous burglary) and the break-ins have been early morning or in the twilight zone of 5-7pm. I don’t think they’d hurt a middle aged woman. But I am genuinely upset. The neighbours are around this half term but I don’t want them to feel guilty about it and they have young kids they are trying to settle after last week, so won’t raise it with them. Don’t want to bother my DH while he’s bonding with the kids before their GCSE/A Level revision starts (my kids are also ASD/ADHD so this is meant to be a reset-cum-break for me). Plus DH thinks I am well-hard as I may have followed them to the back door and yelled a few choice words at them.
Guess I need a hand hold and reassurance that this is a bit normal and will pass (YANBU) or even a brutal snap out of it woman (YABU)
It’s 2am and I cannot sleep. Am a basket case.