To be so stuck

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I have one DC, 3yo, who is super mummy-obsessed, very high energy / demanding, but otherwise delightful and healthy.

I work full time mostly from home in a new job which I really like, with one day a week from the office. I have a DH who works from home full time. DS is at nursery Mon-Thurs and DH has him on a Friday.

On the weekends we will do normal things - meet with parent friends for a play date, walk in the woods, go swimming, maybe visit family. All very much oriented around DS, which I love.

Outside of all this I feel super unfulfilled as an individual and am struggling to find any get up and go to do anything except work, parent and do washing. I don't have many friends, at least many who live near me, so I don't socialise really - apart from play dates where I struggle to have a proper conversation. Have extremely small family and nobody who I am very close to / lives nearby.

DH is a homebody, only child, very introverted, happy just being at home and sitting on the sofa every night watching TV. He has a couple of friends he sees every now and then but admits he doesn't really need friends like I do. We do the occasional date night, once every few months, which is normally just dinner - instigated by me.

I NEED more in my life, I know I do - I love things like swimming, yoga, writing - but I just cannot for the life of me create or find the time to do any of it - and I also really really want some friends to hang out with, but similarly just don't know when / how. I have some mum friends but they all have 2 kids and struggle to leave the house. I've tried doing couch to 5k but just can't motivate myself to get past week 2. I'm getting soooo frustrated with myself and feel like I'm stuck in a rut.

What's wrong with me?!

I’d start by booking yourself into a yoga club or something out of the house, one evening a week and sticking to it. I’ve found I have to make myself take time for me because nobody is ever going to hand it to me. Once you start with that class being your sacred one hour a week itl feel easier to start doing a little more for you. DH can do the same if he wants, if he chooses not to that’s fine but he can’t hold you back. Start small and stick with it is my advice. Others may have far better advice though

I think you know already that time isn't the issue here, you need to find your get up and go.
Quite honestly I'd just go for it- book a class etc and see where it takes you.

Give Park Run a go!

Book a class such as yoga where you pay up front for 10 classes or something, this will make you go.
Lots of areas also have free running groups that tend to be very sociable.
Would any mum friends go swimming with you? Set something up on a group chat?

Do a class or join a walking or running group so that you can socialise with some adults maybe one morning at the weekend when DH can look after your DS and then you could offer him a few hours free time on the alternate weekend day. Perhaps you are missing the adult interactions you get in an office and chit chat with others?