All I wanted was for him to load the bloody dishwasher

[Herdinggoats]

Well not quite. But I’m having a bit of a wobble having read other threads tonight. I left my relationship of 8 years middle of last year as I was absolutely sick of paying all the bills as well as doing everything around the house. Everything was on me and I couldn’t see how I could bring children into a situation where I was having to financially provide and manage everything.

He was devastated when I broke it off (not devastated enough to step up though). Since I broke it off I am seeing a real lack of other men that are around. It’s midway through the weekend, I’m lonely and can’t bear the idea that I’m in for these weekends one after another. I miss working because it fills the time and kills the loneliness.

have I done the right thing?

A man ought to be nice supplement to your life. A bit like dessert.

Not the focus of your life. Why aren't you busy doing things?

My friends are all married with kids and we’ve drifted away. I spoke to my parents earlier thinking I’d see them and they were visiting my brother and his new baby (that hurt hugely that no one had thought to tell me). I’m on dating apps but never get anywhere beyond two or three messages.

I go out and about a lot, but it feels like filling the time more than anything. I don’t know how I’d go about meeting any new genuine friends.

Yes, you did the right thing. But I'm curious as to why you feel the need for a partner in order to have fun/a good weekend? What do you love to do? Go see a movie, take a cooking class, join a painting/sculpting class, find a new museum, hike a new trail in the park, find a new author and get lost in books for the weekend.....lots of ideas!