I’m so fed up I want to cry

[PopGoesTheWeasel3]

My boyfriend was offered to play sport in Australia from October to March, and he accepted. I came with him as this was offered, and it was a perfect way for us to see a country we’d always wanted to.

The sports club paid our flights here, and we will pay our flights home. They gave us a car too.

Until about around christmas, we were in the novelty of it all. We were travelling around on mini holidays, we were soaking it all up. Had some amazing moments But now I’m completely fed up and I want to go home. We only have 5 weeks left but I want to cry.

Boyfriend has to stay here until the end of the contract otherwise he has to pay them everything back, and I don’t yet have enough money to get home. They gave me farm work which I do quite enjoy, but it’s been raining so much that I’ve missed so many shifts.

We’re staying in the middle of nowhere, the closest shop is a 50 minute walk.
Our car broke down a week ago, and we’re having to wait two weeks for a repair. This means we literally cannot get ANYWHERE at the moment. There’s no cabs in the area. Our housemate has offered lifts but he’s out most of the time and works during the day.

I’m losing my mind. We’re living in a farmhouse which has rainwater as drinking water (gross), a really weak shower and SO many bugs. My boyfriend is having to scrap for lifts to work (at sports ground) and to matches, and I am stuck in the house. The house which, may I add, has no aircon and it’s roughly 35 degrees every day.

Another thing, the sports club is so uninclusive and clicky. Not one person has made an effort with us, we haven’t been invited anywhere, been to anyone’s house, nothing. We tried so hard but no one really gave us anything back. We haven’t made any friends. My boyfriend feels the same and is fed up of everyone.

I feel like I’m losing my mind and I want to cry. I thought this would be an amazing opportunity and we’ve had some amazing moments, plus I love living with my boyfriend (who is really supportive). But I don’t know how I’m going to survive the last 5 weeks

Once in a lifetime trip doesn’t = must be happy, grateful and loving every moment of it 24/7. Some once in a lifetime trips = been there, discovered you disliked it, will never do that again.

It sounds rough OP, and you sound homesick. Don’t beat yourself up about not loving it, it sounds like a blooming tough thing to be dealing with as it is

Australia is seen as a dream destination but I've seen alot on social media lately that sometimes the reality is different and things are not always easy. Don't feel guilty for wanting to come home. In my early 20s I lived in a few different countries and some of the time it was amazing, met great people had good times but there were times when it was incredibly lonely and very hard, even more so when money is really tight so limits you. Despite the UKs big issues I do have an appreciation for it now! Is there any work you can do online? I believe mumsnet has some really good suggestions on some of their threads. Even do online English tutoring - there are some websites from China where people just want to have a conversation in English to practice and you can get paid for it. Good luck, 5 weeks isn't a long time but may feel it when your in an unhappy situation.

Update, we both have a day off today and I’m dreading it. It’s much better that he’s around and I’m not alone but still.
We still don’t have a car, so can’t go anywhere. The house is way too hot, the only place with aircon is the bedroom and I don’t want to spend all day in there. It’s too humid outside and we can’t walk anywhere anyway. Talking about doing some washing in a bit… fun!

I’m currently sitting in the kitchen sweating and being attacked by mini flies. Boyfriend keeps saying we’ll find a way to have fun but honestly I’m too fed up. I feel like I’m being a misery…

I answered this before realising how old the post is! Why is it still coming up as being new??

I know nothing about Australia but this sounds horrendous. You need some support is there any platform in terms of social media which would allow you to hook up with some Brits who could offer you some support be it emotionally, physically or practically.

This is coming up on my feed aswell as a new thread. But that aside I am really interested to hear how it worked out for @PopGoesTheWeasel3. I hope you got home ok

@PopGoesTheWeasel3 Are you home yet!!?