I've been wondering this for a while. I do have ocd and anxiety around that but that's pretty well managed with medication (or so I hope!). But everyday I spend so much time worrying that people don't like/hate me. If I go to have a conversation with somebody at work I apologise before I've even walked in the door for taking up their time. I then replay the conversation in my head over and over and convince myself that they must be talking about me to somebody else about how awful or annoying I am.
I specifically go out of my way to be over kind and over generous to people just because I worry about how they think of me. I also spend almost every night losing sleep running over conversations, not just from that day but it could be from years ago and really stressing about it. Everytime I think of certain conversations I feel so embarrassed and hate myself for any little thing I've said.
It's obviously not a very nice way to think all the time so I'm just wondering is this how most people feel and I just have to suck it up and get on with it or is there something I can do to change myself?