I've been struggling with adult life, constant cycles of overwhelm and burn out. I want to go to my GP as I think I have something more than just anxiety, but then I feel like I've missing some of the key signs of autism or ADHD. I have a brother with autism but his symptoms are very textbook and obvious, he was diagnosed at 5 years old. Do you think I should go to the GP or is it likely to just be anxiety? I'm already on anxiety medication
Childhood: Very shy and quiet, terrified of making a mistake and being told off, would sit at the back and just kind of zone out and stare out the window. Remember looking at the popular girls for what was acceptable to like/do/say. Always had a good group of friends though
Teenager: Very shy, relied on having a social best friend who I could follow around rather than navigate the social scene myself, outside of my small friend group I would not interact at all with others, would never answer questions in class, would daydream. Terrible at sports and slow in practical classes (like cooking and science practicals). My work was very neat though but I remember doing badly in tests or assignments because I couldn't motivate myself to study. Would mess around and chat with friends, despite being shy and conscientious. In GCSEs I suddenly found motivation as suddenly the work counted and would study a lot at home almost obsessively and got the highest GCSE results in my year which surprised all the teachers
Adulthood: Still very shy, undergraduate and master's degree but would skip lectures all the time as found them boring and hard to concentrate. Would do no university work until the adrenaline would kick in and I'd spend all day everyday doing university work and not get dressed or eat proper meals until it was done. Never made any friends at university, commuted the whole time as I knew I wouldn't cope with moving out. Conscientious and hard working in my first jobs but found the social aspect confusing. Couldn't concentrate in the office, so would have to catch up at home. Had no idea how to act in meetings, couldn't remember basic details in meetings like the basic facts about my work. Would be so focussed on how i looked on camera, would sit perfectly still and nod and smile but would be fidgeting under the desk anxiously. Ended up burning out and quitting as I couldn't cope with it. Get the worst headache and feeling of tiredness after being out and feel drained, but don't have any sensory difficulties