Keep this as short as possible,
after 5.5 years of utter crp i left my ex.. the usual happened after he had been on the randan he started his rubbish..but this time i got my essentials and left!* (And not looked back) in those years i hit rock bottom, isolated myself from pals and family.. I couldn’t even buy a new pair of jeans without being accused that they were for some other guy’s benefit… I’ve been away for a year paid off the debt i got myself into for him, Ive seen this bag that i would like but I’m not wanting to spend the money on myself.. not because it costs too much etc it’s almost like i feel guilty/ undeserving of buying myself it. It sounds pathetic but its not the first time ive seen anything and thought that’s nice but ended up with the same feelings (There was alot of controlling behaviour from my ex so im not sure if that’s maybe part of the reason i think this way)
do i just need to snap out of it and buy the bag!