I’ve been poorly for 5 weeks now with this dreaded 100 day cough. So all over Xmas, my bday and new year! Course of antibiotics, inhalers and steroids and I can’t shift it, ended up in A&E as GP is full and I’ve been in pain, turns out Ive cracked a rib with the violent fits of coughing.
I finally gave in this week and took it off work to rest and recover but I have worked through otherwise through guilt, I’m a manager at a bank. Now the tricky part, I have 2 kids, 2 dogs and little help.
My mum lives abroad and my dad an hours drive away, and works full time. My siblings are abroad or other end of the country. I’m really struggling to do most things, from the pain and from the breathlessness. My kids are pre teens and are pretty good at looking after themselves and helping in the house but as a minimum they need me to drive them to hobbies and school, I need to cook for them (if it were 1 week I wouldn’t be bothered with ping ping meals but it’s over a month now!) and do washing and ironing. How the hell do other single parents do it alone when your poorly? And even more so when they’re more poorly than me! I coped when it was the cough/cold but now I’ve physically injured myself I am struggling, don’t get much sleep with the pain either. The house is neglected, the dogs are neglected (no walks 😭) and I cant see the light at the end!
I’m meant to be back at work tomorrow and I want to cry at the thought of going but also at the thought of letting them down again for another week.
Am I been soft and just need give my head a wobble and get on with it?!