I have a history of Aspergers, bpd, anxiety and ocd . I’ve never self harmed )
I haven’t taken any antidepressants in about a year . I’ve had 2 sections and a VBAC. I notice after every birth I am in shock for several weeks.
after giving birth a few weeks ago I feel in shock and surreal
heart feels like it’s in my throat
panicky
won’t go outside ( to be fair it’s freezing )
tearful
nothing feels good enough
Feel disconnected from my husband and other kids
thoughts of me walking out and leaving them all
changed baby name several time leading to conflict with dh as I dislike all the alphabet letters
annoyed that he leaves mess to pile up during the week and tidies only at weekend
I can mask well when midwives visit
got a new car promised by dealer it would fit 3 seats in the back and as it turns out it doesn’t it’s a very tight squeeze and middle seat can’t access the belt
I have been given a cpn but she doesn’t feel I need medication and when bf I wouldn’t know what’s safe