To hate my life at the moment?

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I'm on a full time masters placement. Work 3 late nights. Am a single mum to a ten year old. Have two dogs to look after. A house to run. A dad who is in hospital and just getting out of ICU so up and down there most days.

I am just done in and don't seem to get much enjoyment out of life these days. I've came in tonight and have had to lie in my bed as I am so fucking tired. Ten year old jumping about on my bed demanding attention and I just do not have the energy. She's away downstairs in a huff and I'm here feeling guilty.

Everyday is so repetitive and busy.

I've been seeing someone since October and that is the only thing that provides relief at the moment and even that is once every two weeks.

Every single other thing in my life just seems like such a chore. I am so fed up. I don't even look forward to the weekends anymore. Every day is just a battle to get through.

I don't even look forward to coming home from work. The only thing I look forward to is a drink every 2nd Friday when my daughter goes to her dads so I can numb out.

I'm sorry to hear that you're feeling overwhelmed. It sounds like you have a lot on your plate. It's crucial to prioritise self-care. Consider talking to friends or family for support, and if possible, delegate some tasks. Communicate your feelings with your partner, so they understand your situation. Don't hesitate to seek professional help or counseling to navigate these challenges. Remember, taking care of yourself is essential for managing stress and finding moments of enjoyment in your busy life.

Sorry you are having such a rough time - you have a lot to contend with, but a lot that will get better. Remind yourself that it is temporary, things will get better and try to build in times to rest where you can - even if it is 5 minutes here and there. I used to use a mental picture of myself hanging on to the edge of a cliff, and as I got closer to the end of the demands on me, I changed it to me climbing up, being on solid ground, etc etc. It helped me keep going.

When you've already got a busy life something like your dad being ill can tip the just about manageable over into just too much. It's times like these when you have to call in any help you can until things settle. Could your DDs dad do more? Any flexibility you could request around your studies temporarily? A mate who'd walk the dogs? If there's no help you need to prioritise, which means putting your own health and wellbeing first or you're no good to anyone.. Cover the absolute essentials don't stress about housework and explain to DD that while grandads ill you've a lot on and when you're lying down it's because you need a rest, so go do something for an hour then you'll be with her.