ExH sees DD aged 9 for 4 days a month. Never any 1-1 time, doesn’t even have her own bed at his house (sleeps on the sofa)
But everything about dad is better, dad works harder than I do that’s why he can’t see her more, dads work isn’t flexible that’s why he misses concerts and sports day, dads meals are better as they’re mainly mcdonalds and take out, dads a better driver, dads internet is faster, dads got a better phone than me. Dad wants her to live with him but I’m the big mean mum who won’t let her – he doesn’t want her, I’ve offered when at the end of my tether before now and he says he likes seeing her when he does.
I can’t take it anymore.
I am sick of always being compared to ExH, always being the enemy. If I tell her off for being cheeky or rude “Dad wouldn’t tell me off for that” it’s always my fault that dad has to work so much because he has to pay me so much money – he pays me under what CMS tell him to pay because he keeps knocking it down, it’s my fault she has to go to wraparound because “I won’t let dad have her in the week” I’ve offered, he always says no.
I am done with being compared to someone who frankly can’t be bothered, can’t sort out a bed for her and doesn’t want to be a dad. If I try and explain to her that dad only sees her 4 days a month by choice the answer I get back is "No you don't let him see me more, he told me"
I keep being told “She’ll wise up eventually” “Mine wised up around about the age she is now” but it’s getting worse if anything, everything I do is worse than dad.
I am done being someones constant and it being pushed back in my face.
For context there is SN and a medical issue at play so it wouldn’t surprise me if DD never wises up to him and he’s always on this pedestal. Of course I won’t do anything about it, I am just sick of it.
I've tried proving parent alienation in court and got laughed out of it, so I am stuck in this situation.