I would give anything to go back to the role I was originally employed for.
Brief background...I spent a year of my career working in a Pupil Referral Unit for children permanently excluded from education and, although it was by far the most challenging part of my career to date, it was the place where I learnt the most professionally by far about working with SEMH children with extremely high levels of need (all EHCP). The physical violence was at first an eye-opener for sure! I learned about de-escalatiom techniques, qualified in physical restraint training and the (quite rightly) very strict rules surrounding this; it didn't feel like work but a vocation. My brother, who is autistic, suffered in the 80s at school because there just wasn't the awareness there is now and this has always been a major driving force for me too.
On the back of this, I was taken on at a mainstream school to work with an austisic child who was massively struggling within his class of 30. Three was concern he wouldn't be able to stay unless 1:1 help was put in place. Again, one of the best times in my career. A fantastic lad and I literally was able to 1:1 with him at all times. He went on to fluorish in a secondary specialist provision.
When he went moved up I continued my 1:1 role, supporting separately another three children with SEMH and EHCP. One of these children was split-site in that I accompanied her for one day at a specialist provision; a small unit again tailored to SEMH. Again, I learned so very much professionally.
Loved my job. My assistant head said he'd never come across anybody with the passion I have for working with SEMH children. I imagine that to be true; it is where I felt at home and God, I miss it.
Cut to budgets being as they are now.
I would say most of my job is now teaching cover (which I don't enjoy). The rest of the time I am used to undertake whole class spellings etc and then, after that, I support 4 EHCP children, all of whom are in the same class. This is often group teaching planned by solely by myself and delivered at a level they can access. When I can, I link this work closely with their IEP targets and continually assess their progress. It's not the same as working 1:1 by any stretch of the imagination. I wouldn't say I know the children half as well as I would like. I constantly feel pulled in so many directions.
None of these children have a 1:1; a job that I would honestly give anything to do. In addition to these four EHCP children, there are many more across the year group with additional needs whom I simply can't be there for.
I try my best for these children but I know it's not enough.