My boyfriend of only 6 months broke up with me two days ago. I'm really upset about it as it came out of nowhere for me, but obviously it's what he wants to I have to respect his decision. He was very respectful about it and answered all of my questions. He said he would like to continue being friends but knows how upset I am about things.
I was an absolute mess yesterday, woke up today and didn't feel too bad to be honest but as it's getting later and later in the day and I've not heard from him (obviously) it's hitting me like a ton of bricks again.
I feel so sad and so unloveable. My son is just about to go to his dads for the weekend and I have this knot in my stomach. I don't know what I will do with myself, I kind of want to just say fuck it and have some wine but I know this will just make me feel terrible tomorrow and might make me want to text or call him. I don't want to do anything, don't want to eat, don't want to watch anything on tv, don't want to see friends or family, don't want to exercise, don't want to even stand up tbh. I am really feeling this one and I feel like I'm crawling out of my skin.
My face has completely broken up since Wednesday when this happened, really painful under the skin cysts. Everything just now is reminding me of him and just knowing I won't hear from him again is breaking my heart.