To dislike face-to-face conversations?

[Mermaidsgalore]

I think it comes from shyness, in groups it's ok but I always feel really self conscious having a one to one, face to face conversation even if it's someone I know well.
I am very self conscious because a few years ago I went out for a drink with a male friend I hadn't seen in years and then afterwards he texted me saying 'I couldn't stop looking at your face, you looked so reserved '. I found it rude tbh.
I've also had another adult make a comment about how I blink a lot and so I'm incredibly self conscious about my eyes.
I've tried filming myself and I can't see anything that bad tbh, but I remain self conscious. I hate the feeling that I'm being watched and judged.
Not sure how to get over this? I'm also paranoid about what I do with my hands, how my posture looks etc.
I am on medication for anxiety but not sure how much good it's doing, also take Kalms if I feel particularly nervous. I'm in my 30s. Anyone else have or had this?

However I've always done well in interviews for some reason.

No I haven’t but I can tell you one thing there are billions of people in the world and I bet you don’t stand out amongst them at all!

Anxiety is a beast tho

You friend probably meant you looked moody but thought saying you looked reserved was somehow a bit more diplomatic

You should try not to care what others think so much. They really aren’t thinking about your face looking reserved at all!

Maybe, but I was smiling a lot or so I thought not sure how he could have thought it, and I have heard that but I've had people go out of their way to tell me/or say behind my back that Iook nervous.
I've had this since school and as I've said I'm on the medication, I've tried mindfulness etc. but I feel like I'll just always have a nervous energy, I don't know what I can do about that, sedate myself to the hilt maybe!
I will try to not care what they think, these comments just hurt me because they're not intended to be positive.

Have you tried propranolol? It blocks the physical symptoms of anxiety so might be useful if you present as physically nervous

Thank you, I haven't but will have a look! I'm on setraline 50mg ATM, will have to see if I'm allowed to take them at the same time.