Been single for nearly 5 years now. Abusive relationship with son's dad, vowed to take some time to myself, find out what I liked, get some hobbies, focus on my son etc. I did all that and I am spectacularly happy now. Genuinely. The last 5 years have been the best 5 of my life, despite lengthy court proceedings and the stresses of motherhood.
I'm not sure if it is Christmas, or all the wedding invites, but I'm getting the urge to date again. I'm terrified of the idea and not sure if I'm better off just staying single. My son still co sleeps with me, and I worry about things like this having to stop (I've got very used to being able yo prioritise him and to be honest, I really enjoy it).
I'd love to have another child and tried to work out a way of ethically doing this myself (I wouldn't want to adopt or foster. I was in foster care for a long time and I would struggle - I'm not cut out for it). So, accept I may just not have another.
I'm just feeling awfully confused and miss adult human contact, but can't imagine myself ever living with someone again. God, the thought fills me with dread.
Has anyone felt similar?