I left my partner last year when DD was a newborn. We have an older child too.
I managed ok, had to live with my parents but it was fine. Was seeing someone else and was happy for first time in ages.
Ex partner made it difficult for me to find somewhere to live. Wouldn't sell the house, I had no support. He then said he was sorry he wanted to make it work etc, I thought he had changed.
He's been nicer for around a year and now I can feel him starting again.
He went on his works do, didn't come home until 1pm next day. No idea where he stayed.
He flies off the handle for everything. He was queuing in a shop and eldest wanted to go look at something outside, so I said I'll take him. I nipped into card factory to get my mum a birthday card. Didn't have any signal as it was busy. I was only 10 mins and then I had loads of text said answer your fucking phone where the fuck are you. He'd only been waiting under 10 mins. He was so angry we went home.
Other night he was eating his dinner stood up. All I said was "do you always eat stood up" he shouts there's no need for me to be such a sarcastic bitch etc.
I'm in a job that's making me unhappy.. I saw a job that was 12 hours over 3 days. He kicked off saying we can't get the childcare for that, his job is more important than mine it puts a roof over our head etc.
Ever year it seemed he always tried to ruin Christmas with his drama... and at my age I've just not got the energy for it.
I just feel utterly miserable and don't know what to do.