My family makes me feel useless and unwanted

[Crystalballplease]

I’m an o my child
my mother has mental health difficulties
apart from one uncle and aunt the rest of my family (10 aunts and uncles) and cousins just make me feel so horrible I’m left out of things and given the excuse it’s because of my mum
when I am invited it’s very apparent I’m an outside
I always get ignored when I suggest meeting up
sometimes I’m picked up for a bit and then put down again.
today iv had enough I just want to block them all which I know is silly but it’s hard going on social media and being reminded I am the outside
I wish I had the strength to ignore them but when im
invited to stuff I always hope that I’ll perhaps be included in things and loved but of course it never works out like that. I’m 40 and feel so lonely and useless
what can I do ?

Your self worth comes from yourself
Objectively you can see the way they treat you is not personal but based on being an only of a parent probably also pushed out.
build a network of people who do value you
do thinks that build self worth
sweep in late and glamourous, with good humour and ignore the rudeness. Leave after two hours 😊

I'd start by hiding them from your feed. Out of sight, out of mind really is true!

Have you got friends?

I do have friends but iv also lost a lot due to having spells of depression where I don’t feel like I can keep to plans because I feel so ugly and horrible