To Ask You To Help Me Like Myself?

[WhyAmIMe]

Not even love myself. Like myself would do.

I've always had imposter syndrome. Never felt like I fitted in or that I'm good enough.

I hate how I look. I'm overweight and binge eat. I don't socialise because it gives me anxiety.

I do well at my job but pretend to get on with everyone.

I spend most of my time worrying what other people think of me.

I've joined the gym but just feel so ugly and useless compared to everyone else.

Is there a way I can change how my brain thinks? To somehow accept myself and be happy?

Have a look at this article as a starting point, it will help you understand why you think the way you do;

https://www.betterrelationships.org.au/well-being/core-beliefs-self-acceptance/#:~:text=What%20are%20core%20beliefs%3F,perceive%20and%20interpret%20the%20world.

Clicked on this to see what tips people have as I feel pretty similar. I had some career coaching with work last year and ended up that it was more about me and my confidence so maybe if you can get some coaching or counselling it would help you. For me exercise is definitely helpful as well so maybe give the gym more of a chance (do you have a trainer who has set a workout to make sure you progress and doing exercises properly etc?) or is there anything else you would love to try? I run because I love it and enjoy getting outside - park run is very accessible and friendly if you have one near you and you could volunteer as well which might be a way to start socialising a bit more as that is supposed to help

Thanks I will have a look.

Maybe a diary might help you get out of your own head a bit? Sometimes one bad thing happens that makes us think the whole day has been a bad one, but when you see it on paper you are more able to see that it was just one negative thing in amongst 99 positive things.

There are some journals that have daily prompts for positive thinking:
What did I do well today?
What did I get better at today?
What did I work hard towards?
I am improving at...
My goal for this week is...
I achieved all/most of my goals from last week by...

I saw a therapist for low self esteem (amounst other things) and she had me write down every nice thing anyone said to me about myself. At the end of the week I had to read them all. She also got me to list out loud to her all the things I was good at and my good points, what my friends would say were my best features- it was excruciating but really helped me.
Tell friends how you feel and they will shower you with love? See your GP for talking therapy? Sending hugs x