To think this is the start of meno at 33

[earlymeno2]

I'm 33. And currently really worried I could be heading into Peri-menopause. Its making me really depressed as I'm not able to TTC currently as I'm single. I don't want to go it alone, nor would I be happy with egg donation later on.

This year, my hormones have felt a bit 'off'. Sickness and bloating at different times of my cycle, cramps, headaches. The headaches I have had with periods since my teens but cramps were never a thing for me until my 30s. I did have a smear test which showed abnormal cells which were removed and I did bleed for weeks afterwards but that was a few months ago now.

Biggest worry is my cycles at the moment, and my FSH readings. My cycles have always been 'irregular' but monthly. So period would come any time between CD24 and CD31.

In 2021, my cycles were all between CD26-CD30 (average 28) and in 2022, CD23-CD30 (average 27) and currently CD23-CD31 this year but more than half being before CD26 which is my average for this year.

I today (CD21) have light brown discharge. I have this year sometimes had light discharge before a period, a new symptom for me, but its usually pink. I also had Pink, then brown discharge for a day on CD10 this month which is new for me as I have NEVER ever spotted between periods before. This was a day before I felt quite sick for a few days with my lower abdomen.

When my periods first went haywire, I did have a blood test on CD7 where my FSH was 12.6. A year before that, I had a blood test CD15 with FSH also 12.

I have spoken to my Gp about my worries, and she just asked 'do you have hot flushes?' I said 'no' so she said I probably am not in the menopause, but i'm worried and its all i'm thinking about.

Not sure what i'm hoping for in terms of responses but maybe some reassurance? Or should I just accept that i'm running out of time and yes, it may never happen for me (having a baby) thanks

So since I first created this post, things have just got worse. :(

Every cycle since November (4 cycles in total) have been the same.
A sore ovulation week, I can press down on my ovary areas at this time and it feels swollen and sore as if I can feel the follicles growing, my stomach gets incredibly bloated and I just feel generally unwell with my lower abdomen.

After ovulation week (if I am even ovulating at all which I don't know), I start having brown or pink discharge which starts just as I wipe but progresses to the point I need to use a panty liner. This continues up until I get my 'proper' period bleed around CD27/28. So this cycle the discharge started on CD16 (!!)

I had an transvaginal and ultrasound and what was noted, was a 'Corpus Luteum' cyst (?) and a thickened womb lining. Well google searches don't seem to show up much information about a thick womb lining so I am guessing this is hormone imbalance, which panics me as I haven't had my children yet.

TLSS, I'm 33, have a thickened womb lining, pain around ovulation and bleeding through out my luteal phase. Before 4 cycles ago, I had non painful periods and no bleeding between them.

I'm finding my mental health isn't great, I think that's due to worry but my next appointment with gynae isn't for a while and I'm not even sure my mind can be put at rest anyway as what I'm experiencing isn't normal (at least for me)