I have the best baby in the whole world. He sleeps like a dream and is the most pleasant soul. I actually can't believe how much I love him and love being a mum.
I was never that into kids and agreed to have one as DH really wanted to and I am SO glad every day I did.
I only wanted one. I hated being pregnant. I had sickness and heartburn pretty much the whole time. Very easy birth (planned section by choice).
I like time to myself and since DS was born I've still gone out to my hobby regularly as DH is a great dad and he's happy to look after him when he's home from work (standard 9-5 outside the house). Today I've already been to the gym and had nails done.
My parents love baby DS too and babysit every week so me and DH go to the cinema at least once a week.
My best friend lives in Qatar and I go and stay with her for a long weekend twice a year. DH happy for me to still do that while he stays at home with DS.
So we have a nice life and a nice balance. I feel that one child is to manage between us and we both still get time to ourselves. I was a very happy only child. I get overwhelmed easily and the thought of another child to look after and bicker with DS makes me feel a bit stressed!
But I just can't help this nagging feeling that maybe I should have another. If something happened to DS I honestly don't feel like I could go on. But if I had another I would still have a reason. Sorry that's morbid but it keeps popping into my head. Also it might be nice to have a daughter so I could experience one of each sex (obviously I know I couldn't choose).
Another would compromise free time, money, lifestyle. I dread the thought of pregnancy again and it would be even worse with a child to look after this time!
I don't have long to decide as I'm approaching late thirties already. I thought I already had decided to stick at one. DH says he's happy with whatever I decide.
Should I consider another? I don't know why I can't stop thinking about it. Maybe it's hormones, baby DS is only 4 months!