I started a training course, the first one in a long time, at the weekend. It's for something very important and the first day I was so incredibly nervous.
I noticed when I was speaking I just couldn't seem to make a point succinctly for one thing, so I was rambling and sounding fucking stupid, and I could feel my heart racing and my vision was literally pulsating from stress in those moments.
Then in casual small talk conversation on the breaks I actually tripped up over small simple sentences a few times? The words actually came out in the wrong order?
This happened especially if I was trying to do something else ie pour a coffee at the same time as respond to the person, I just felt so flustered and unable to easily do, well, anything really, and it's like it took intense effort to not look stupid and do things normally, and then I still ended up looking stupid.
It had eased off and was not remotely so bad by day 2 of the course but should I see a doctor about early dementia or something? Or could this be intense anxiety in the situation?