Hi. Before your read this please no judgment, I'm having a hard enough time mentally right now and I only want some advice. I've seen post similar in the past that get lots of abuse so if you can't be nice please don't comment. So I've been in my relationship for 8 years and things have been bad for a while, when we are in eachothers company it's very hostile and we struggle to get along, he's out of the house a lot gym ect, when he's away he's lovely, but when he's here it's like a switch has flipped, he doesn't like to help me with the kids, house and gets very shitty whenever I ask, it's always about him and his mental health and support for him to the point where my mental well-being is ignored, to him I feel I'm the cleaner, child keeper, someone to give him sex when he wants it. I can't be venerable around this man anymore He treats me like I'm stupid whenever I do. He's not capable of having adult conversation and refuses to, he's not worked in years due to mental health, I work from home, I don't drink, I look after our children, our house, or finances ect he goes on boys holidays and is going away in a few months where as I'm just left home like the maid. I'm not allowed male friends, or to even have conversations with men this is where it gets a bit messy, I've been good friends with someone I worked with in the past for a year or so, we got chatting outside of work when he found out he had cancer and I was at my lowest point with depression. We supported eachother made eachother feel like we had someone, we both had tough times with no one to talk to, that's all it's ever really been of course my partner never knew as he would have fried me for it, he would have ruined my life, but now it feels hard to let that other person go, we have built emotional connections that are pretty pointless.. everything is a mess.