I’m a Teacher and would give up tomorrow morning if I could. I’ve felt like this for years now.
I worked in a few retail jobs while at Uni, and would gladly return to any of them, especially one which was a more specialised type of shop which I thoroughly enjoyed. It was honestly the best job I’ve had - much more enjoyable than teaching, and when I went home, the job did not follow me. The trouble is the pay though, it’s not nearly enough for what my family and I need sadly.
I was reading work emails while eating my breakfast at 6am, writing in my planner and was incredibly anxious (as always when going to school) while travelling to work.
The whole day at work was relentless, as is every day. I almost started crying when teaching an awful class this afternoon - the rudeness and disrespect is intolerable.
When I arrive home to my children, when I’m cooking the dinner etc, I’ve not switched off at all from work - it’s just not possible. I try desperately to just enjoy my beautiful children, but I’m constantly thinking an out the shit parts of the day (most of the day), of all the work I have to do that evening, and thinking anxiously about what time I’ll go to bed. I regularly only get around 3-4 hours of sleep as I’m up working so late.
I’ve looked at so many other careers, and have applied, but I just don’t get anywhere - never even an interview. I feel so trapped.