broke up with my ex 7 weeks ago. It was really sudden. It all started when we had some disagreements regularly. But I always felt I caught the blame. For example, it was his sisters birthday, she introduced the group round the area but didn’t introduce me. I said to him at the end of the night I found that a bit rude, he then walked off said “every night out you argue. It’s so tiring. Why do you create this nonsense. And walked off and said “I think you should pack your bags this weekend and go home” I was shocked because he never spoke to me this way before. I was really hurt by this when he said it but we moved on by the morning.
later on we went on a holiday and there was an issue I had. A woman from his work kept texting him. I just got really upset by it and said I felt a breach of trust. We’re on holiday. Why is she bothering us? I had quite a big argument with him about it and said. There were things that made me question my trust at other times and this made it worse for me. I had to walk out of a shop because I became really overwhelmed with him. In the end I just accepted it, and decided that it was pretty much something I was making a fuss over.
I then said I kept having awful dreams of the break up. Which then had started a floodgate and he said “well actually I feel more like myself with my mates than with you” bare in mind we’d been together 6 years so it was a long relationship. Not a quick one and they have ups and downs.
I also blame myself because I told him we’d been in a long distance for 6 years and if by the end of next year things didn’t change I’d have to reconsider. But I just felt like I couldn’t keep putting myself through the pain of being so far all the time and not feeling like I saw the end in sight for us.
in the end he broke it off. And was really brutal with it. The conversations between us became more dry when we got back off holiday. He wouldn’t say he loved me and eventually just became really cold with me. In the end I went to visit him to talk and he barely even made eye contact and just said it was over. Promised he’d meet me on the Sunday but then said he didn’t want to give false hope.
then suddenly I looked at his social media and there’s a picture of a woman as his display image. Evidently showing he’s moved on in 7 weeks. My family told me I shouldn’t blame myself as I always say it’s all my fault. I pushed him away.
Aibu by blaming myself here??