Since Sunday afternoon I've been dealing with a sick 2 year old by myself - partner works away and family not close by. No hands on support whatsoever. Sunday evening I called 111 who based on my description of the symptoms sent a blue light ambulance to take her to hospital. She needed some oxygen to help her breathe. It was so scary. We were discharged later that night around midnight. I had a huge panic attack in the hospital (personal reasons related to childhood trauma and hospitals).
By time her dad got to us after driving back to be with us, he was only there for a brief time, stayed overnight, and then back to work yesterday morning. Yesterday she was still unwell and started to vomit loads, but kept running away from the sick bowl I was trying to hold under her. It was so stressful. Everything was a battle with her and I was so worried. Today I've had to cancel my working day to look after her, including a meeting I really needed to be at, as partner not finished work til this evening. Also not sleeping over night as I'm so anxious I'm waking to keep an eye on her.
AIBU to just be so fucking burnt out and tiered right now? I know people deal with worse. But I'm so done in, just need a break / a hug! 🙁