Not sure why I’m posting but just feel a bit deflated so wanted to get some advice. I’m in my mid twenties, I have a 4 year old and I am a single parent. I moved out two years ago so don’t see them all the time but I still see then fairly regularly, mostly if my mum invites us round. I’ve really started to feel like my dad dislikes me. I don’t feel as though I’ve done anything particularly wrong but I just don’t think he’s proud of me at all and I feel like he’s fed up with me and doesn’t like me. I’m not working at the moment but actively looking for work and have had a couple of interviews recently. He always makes snarky digs at me about that. About ‘how much time on my hands’ he thinks I have. Also he thinks I’m not trying hard enough to work.
He’s always finding something to say to me that puts me down and make a comment on. Nothing is good enough. He still treats me like a child tbh. Whenever I try and make conversation I can see him shutting off and not even listening to me. Sometimes he just mumbles back and I can tell he didn’t even acknowledge what I was saying.
I’m a little over weight and he makes comments about my mum who is a lot smaller than me saying she’s put ‘timber’ on. Which just makes me feel uncomfortable too because I’m bigger than her and I don’t know why he feels it’s necessary to make them comments. He’s always making nasty comments about bigger people as well and fat shaming.
I have anxiety so sometimes I worry about things that may not bother others. He calls me a ‘weird freak’ occasionally when I panic about something. Absolutely no support from him at all for anything.
Ive just started feeling like a burden in his presence. He’s negative, goes around tutting at everything. Just feel deflated by it all