to worry about losing my job?

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(New here. In Ireland if that makes any difference)

I have this weird feeling I’m going to be sacked soon. Don’t know what it is, just an odd sensation of inevitability.

I meet my targets and have done for 2.5 years. I get along well with my team, even if I am a bit introverted. Problem is, I’ve had unexpected health issues crop up in recent months. I was on medical leave for 3 days 2 weeks ago, and had to take 3 days sick after an appointment went horrifically wrong in early September, and now I’m booked in for surgery next Thursday/Friday, meaning I’ll be off again for nearly a week and a half. Then I’m off on a week long holiday at the end of the month (booked and approved far before the health issues began, will lose a lot of money if I cancel, and it’ll impact family).

I haven’t missed much time at all that hasn’t been Annual Leave, and only received a shoutout last quarter for being a pivotal member of the team. Yet I feel like it’s all in jeopardy now and I’m at risk of falling behind despite pushing harder than ever. I do struggle with anxiety, and being fired is a major fear of mine. All my “time off” is medically backed up and approved.

My managers have been lovely, always checking in to see if I’m alright, but I’m worried they’re hiding frustration.

AIBU to worry? Is it just my anxiety acting up?
or AINBU and my job IS in trouble?

I can't see any reason in what you have said that indicates your job could be at risk.

All the missing time is what makes me think I’m no longer an “asset” to keep on board

It doesn't sound like you're at risk to me, just sounds like bad luck.

It sounds like you've been in this job for a couple of years and have always been reliable and trustworthy, that counts for a lot. You've just had some bad luck health-wise.

If this is really concerning you, take control of it as best you can. Ensure a thorough handover for the next few weeks while you have surgery/are away on annual leave. When you get back, arrange a meeting with your manager if needed to discuss any priority projects and how you'll approach them etc. Reassure them that you're keen to continue meeting your targets after taking some time off over the last few weeks.

Your health and wellbeing comes first, always.

Hun, you can't be fired for having sick days, especially ad you have proof they ate serious. Also that holiday although possibly inconvenient timing is also legally yours to take. Sound slide your work are supporting you and there is no way they can fire you without a performance plan and how can you improve when hey have already said you are a pivotal member of the team. They also won't want to make you redundant as you have been there over 2 years and so would get a pay out and they probably aren't making redundancies anyway. You are definitely worrying way too much about something they could legally end up in hot water for plus it wounds like they haven't even hinted that that's a possibility. People tale the piss way worse than you in life. Maybe just talk to them about your concerns and I'm sure they will illeviate them.

What the other posters said - but just to put your mind at ease, you could send a note to your manager (or say it in person) along the lines'I'm aware that my recent health issues have been a bit of a pain but I'm hopeful that my upcoming surgery will have a positive impact. Really sorry that I'm going on hols straight after tho - obviously I wouldn't have planned it this way if I'd known! I'm going to do a thorough handover though and hopefully once I'm back things will return to their previous optimal level!'

Definitely keep it informal - you don't want to create issues where there were none and this is just to indicate that you are able to see things from their POV, not that you are actually apologising for being sick!

Don't put as many exclamation marks as I did tho

If there were concerns, management would already have raised them with you. You're fine, just concentrate on getting better.