Those days you get tired of being a mother

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First off, the majority of the time I love being a mum, I wouldn’t be without my Dd and I waited years to be a mum (which makes me feel more guilty for these feelings)
Occasionally I have those awful days/weeks where i’m just too
tired and would love to just sleep in the morning or spend the weekend not having to *Do stuff, either playing, shopping, entertaining, going to parties etc etc
I also get a panicky feeling and I count how many years I have left of having to be so utterly responsible and completely *On at all times. We don’t have family near, so never get time alone
Then I feel completely guilty as I adore Dd so much and most of the time I want to stay like this forever and never have her grow up and leave home
Motherhood is a rollercoaster
Just having that very *Trapped feeling at the moment
Anyone else

Been there! It gets easier. Around 6 onwards (till preteen) is such a lovely age.

@BananaHamster Dd is 5, it’s a lovely age, just still very tiring 🙈and now emotional worry has started too, it’s a lot sometimes isn’t it

Definitely! I love my girls to bits and would go to the edge of the universe for them. DH is in the Army and commutes 250 miles each way weekly if hes in the country so I'm "on duty" the majority of the time and sometimes I just wish I could do something without planning for it, or had a mute button so I don't have to hear "Muummmmyyy" for the 100th time that day...

I wouldnt change it (except DH being so far away) but sometimes... a little breather...

I feel exactly the same. My DS is three, and I'm tired every single day. I can't remember the last time I had a decent night's sleep, and my marriage is really struggling because of the pressure of taking care of a toddler. I dread the weekends, because I have no time to relax or focus on my own hobbies. I get envious when my coworkers talk about sleeping in, or looking forward to the weekend, and I'm just counting down the minutes until Sunday evening when I can put DS to bed and thank the lord it's almost over! Having said that, I love my DS more than anything and I'm so thankful that he's happy and healthy, but I really miss my old life where I didn't have the responsibility of being a parent. It also scares me when people talk about how teenagers are more difficult than the toddler years... I like to think that when DS is older and we can do more things together/I don't have to worry about public tantrums etc. that I'll get some of my life back. I also can't fathom why people go on to have multiple kids. I'm considering getting my tubes tied because I have no desire to go through any of this again!

5 is still so very little. It gets better very soon.

I get you! I love my kids with every fibre of my being.They are the best thing that ever happened to me. BUT there are those days when I just long to just 'be'. Aq

Yes I get this. DDs last year before she goes to school next September and I am so sick of toddler groups and soft play on the endless rainy winter days as I work part time as no family around. I feel so guilty for wishing the time away but it is a bit relentless and she's always snotty/covered in food/got some bug or another too.
I love the bones of her but if I have to tell her to stop picking her nose one more bloody time today I will scream!