I was scrolling through Instagram today and my ex popped up on people you may know, I clicked it out of curiosity & seen he's posted a pregnancy announcement. I knew this was coming as me and DH bumped into him a around 2 months back at the EPU. (Me and him split a year and a half ago, met Dh and married quick) me and my ex weren't compatible and fell out of love, I am completely and utterly in love with DH, he's so amazing. We've been TTC for 1 year with 3 miscarriages, it's not been easy on us but we still have so much love and hope for the future. When I seen the announcement it made me ... sad? Not because I wish it was me having a baby with my ex, but because it's reminds me of what me and DH don't have and what we have lost 3 times. I am really happy for my ex and his partner, and I'm not bitter or jealous of him. I just wish it was me and Dh too, pregnancy announcements are always hard but I guess when it's someone close to home, it's even harder. He only lives a few streets away altho I haven't bumped into him yet but family have & he's wished me well to my mum - no bad feelings! It's just a mix of emotions, I rang DH crying cos I think it all came over me because with the last MC I pushed it to the back of my mind cos we was getting married 2 weeks later so I threw myself into planning but it just brought it all back up. I'm probs being an unreasonable emotional mess!!! DH and I are getting some strawberry daiquiris in later and some chocolate, I'm lucky he's so supportive and kind when I have these moments (he has them too, he said earlier seeing babies reminds him of what we don't have together yet) it's such a hard journey x