Please help!

[peppapig123456]

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What's wrong with me?!

From the outside looking in I have a beautiful life, loving family, lovely house and pets.

But I just feel so depressed and anxious, I secretly binge eat and I can't stop! Im so impulsive and am struggling to control spending etc and I can't talk to anyone about it. I imagine how my partner would cope if I wasn't around anymore, then feel upset that I would even think that and leave my DC without a parent! I'm already on antidepressants on highest dose. I'm just stuck and don't know what to do!

Did your GP refer you for counselling? Antidepressants are most effective with talking therapy, you need both.
Sending a hug.
Today, drink plenty of water and try to get out in the fresh air, even if it’s raining. Come home take a shower and dry off.
This feeling, like all things, will pass.

Thank you for replying,

No, I was meant to do cbt after my little one was born but couldn't stick at it. I'm about to swap from sertraline to fluxotine to see if that helps

Iv been out this morning to check on the pets, I'm just so lost...

See how you feel after a change of medication. It made a massive difference to my husband. Good luck x

Give the meds time, including, if necessary, working through a number of meds under your doc’s supervision to find what works for you. Nothing’s wrong with you, any more than there would be if you had a cold - which you have, in a sense: depression & anxiety are the common colds of the mind. CBT is great. It can be hard to stick at, & you may well find there’s a period when you have to go through the motions of what the programme asks of you without believing remotely in it working. But it will be, quietly, in the background - & if you persevere, you’ll reap the benefits. You’ll get there.

Did this start with the birth of your little one? A friend of mine is recovering from postnatal depression. She found that CBT helped, and also EMDR. Please do seek therapy in addition to medication. It really can make a huge difference, although sometimes it is difficult to stick to and at times can feel worse before it gets better, because you’re working through difficult stuff (with the EMDR specifically).
Take care of yourself x

No, i struggled late teens/ early twenties but then managed to come off meds and sort myself out and have been relatively ok for the past 5 years or so. After the birth it did rear it's ugly head again and 2 years later it's not getting any better, in fact it's dipping by the day!