WhatWereTheSkiesLikeWhenYouWereYoung ·
12/10/2023 02:45
None of my days at the moment are great but this one was really bollocks.
First off started by having a series of arguments with DD13 about getting ready for school, getting screamed at to shut up many times by her, and eventually dropping her to school 20 mins late. Driving away from school when I got a call asking me to come in for a meeting about her behaviour. Went in and did that which took an hour, fun as always (it’s a regular thing), then got 2 more phone calls from the school whilst driving home, firstly to say DD had gone to the toilet then vanished, and the second to say she’d turned up, not where she was supposed to be but she’d been found.
Got home and felt broken by my shitty start to the day, cleaned up last night’s puppy piss off the carpet, then got into bed and cried and seriously thought about offing myself, before messaging the doctor to say I was having a mental health crisis (no response from them as yet). The offing myself thing seems dramatic but I am literally at the end of my tether with DD2, she is vile in and out of school and makes mine and my other DC’s life a misery, and has done for years. I then fell asleep rather than do any of the million things I was supposed to do today.
DD2 returned from school to be generally unpleasant once more, I attempted to tidy the house which looks like a right shithole, didn’t get very far. Found a stinky rotten mouse under the sofa which I had to wrestle off the dog who got to it before me, and then eventually decided to have a sit down and watch married at first sight.
Half way through MAFS the dog was chewing on a chewy stick when she started choking on it, and was really panicked. I phoned the vets, to find that their out of hours is now covered by a different vets, so instead of going 10 mins up the road I had to drive 40 mins into the city.
Drove like a nutter to get there in the pissing rain, afraid the dog was going to die, to get there and pay £300 to find out that the dog had now swallowed the chewy stick and was fine.
Got back not that long ago, watched the rest of MAFS in bed, then just realised I had ANOTHER dead mouse in bed next to me.
Can’t wait to see what tomorrow brings 😑